Joy is distinct not only from pleasure in general but even from aesthetic pleasure. It must have the stab, the pang, the inconsolable longing.
~ C.S. Lewis, Surprised by Joy
I’ve done this before. Some would say I’ve done it pretty well, but experts would disagree. Even when I was following what the experts said to do, I managed to fail. Now that I am “at it again,” this writing-blogging thing, I am supposed to build my platform, I am supposed to build my mailing list, I am supposed to build my name. But I have to tell you, that’s not what this website is going to be about. It’s not about trying to suck you into an email list so that I can hound you with all the things I am doing. I can’t tell you how conflicted and convicted I am about all of it. If I was a little younger I would have filled up pages of melancholy poems about how I long to reach you without abusing my influence.
But I turned 40 this year and I’m done with trying to impress. At least, I hope I am.
Here is what I would like. I would like to share some of my story, some of my silly insights, even some of my pain. Some of the sharing will be through blog posts and some of it will be through larger works of writing which I will sell here.
Basically, that’s all. God is teaching me things and so I write about it. I write creative nonfiction with Bible studies and I write YA novels with attached readers guides to help parents openly discuss life with their adolescents. I write stories I want to share with my family and friends, and honestly, I hope you will become that. A friend who wants to come on the journey with me.
I’m not putting a newsletter together and I’m not going to make myself blog a certain number of times a week. My goal is once a week, but we will see if that is realistic as I battle caring for my family while waging the war against chronic pain and depression. There will be plenty of that here and some of my struggles as I learn to care for my sister who has a brain-injury. So, my story is full of twists and turns, but I long to land at the feet of my Savior. I want to lift Him high in all that I do and say.
So this is my safe place to share. I hope you will join me here.
Photo credit top to bottom: Lukas Blazek, Ana Tavares